who died and made me Cinderella?

Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts.

Should I be worried that at my age now, I still don't seriously think about getting married? It's not that I don't want to, but for some personal reason I choose not to. And honestly, with other important things that demand my attention and energy, getting married is pushed far down in my top to-do list.

So please people, stop asking when I'm getting married. When the time comes, I'll personally let you all know. But for the time being, I am happy being unattached. Full stop. (and please don't try to be 'funny' by asking me that question after reading this entry. I'll consider it as offensive)


Riiiighhht, now that serious stuffs are safely pushed aside - freena tagged me with this wedding-themed meme. I initially refused to do it since, well... it's about getting married. Not my fave topic. Nuuh. But what the heck - a meme is a meme, and I'm dead bored at the moment. Plus, this one particular question made my inside tickled with sweet innocence, picturing my perfect day.

Name the song/tune you would like to play at your wedding?

When I do get married, I'll take it back with some oldies. Frank Sinatra's The Way You Look Tonight song, to be precise. I think I adore this song much more than I should. Each words are perfect and profoundly beautiful, I can't imagine any other song that can top this particular song.

There is nothing for me but to love you...


someday, skat... somefineday!

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cuteness overload : approach with caution

I'm dying. I have to be dying. I mean, it's impossible to live without a beating heart, right?

This video should come with contents warning. Hell, Cesc Fabregas should come with warning. Cuteness overload : approach with caution. Cause I almost exploded from the cuteness overload.

And I can almost felt the way my heart floats out the chest towards my object of obsession affection.

Oh yessss, I am dying. What a way to go...



Sorry for the short entry, but it's Friday and I've been waiting all week for Friday to come. I don't know about you guys, but I AM SO READY FOR MY WEEKEND~!

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ohai blogger bX-xovb7t error *waves*

Does anyone else having similar problem when creating a new Blogger post? I've experienced this for almost 2 days now. Done some googling and it comes to this :

from the Blogger team :

Some users are reporting a bX-xovb7t error when creating a new post. We're looking into this and will report back when we have an update on the issue.

As a workaround, you can remove your post template code from the Settings | Formatting tab, and you will be able to post again.

Thanks for your patience.

Do as recommended and voila, it's back to normal! And now I already forgot what I really wanna blog about. Geez, thanks Blogger.

Oh yes, I've totally shut down my gifs blog from now on. All the gifs will be posting over here. I knew some random peepz stalk me and lurk around here for gifs, so hopefully you guys update your bookmark. And now that I post it over LJ, hopefully it can lure all you stalkers/lurkers to come out and leave comment on my gifs. y/y?

This breaks my heart a little.



I know this is just a matter of somewhat un-based opinion from arseblog, but I can't help thinking that it might comes true. Thank God for x-undercover-x who has been reasoning with me. Her words - But I think he'll stay really, he didn't just come here to be on loan the next year soothe me, so thank you bb :)

Awesome Azza, please don't go on loan. Your Nick would be heartbroken. Please think of Nick. (and the fangirls too, of course)


adorable Azza is adorable

Congrats on the new long-term contract, by the way.
Here's to many success and silverware in the future, bb :)


And this make me lol. Loltastic ads at its best!!!




Did I mentioned that it was ajandaus' birthday last Saturday? No? Well, it was. (happy birthday sist! ) And she gets Britney Spears' Fantasy perfume as her birthday's present from her dearest fiancee. Lucky woman

And it's less than 48 hours to freedom.
FRIDAY NIGHT, YOU BETTER COME RUNNING TO ME NOW!

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pass me the tissue, my bloggie is all grown up now *sniffs*

My bloggie turns 5 today yesterday. So yeah,

Soooo 5 years, huh?

5 years worth of 492 entries posted, full with whining, ranting, rambling, babbling about everything that usually nonsense, most times random, somewhat logical, sometimes witty, otherwise made me emotionally whiny. And yes, I've come from a long, loooongggg way. From a girl who used to adore... wait for it - Crispi Gaynaldo now I'm stuck with Cesc Fàbregas (with occasional flings with Nick, Awesome Azza, probably Thomas Vermaelen too... what? Don't look at me like that) so yes, I can safely say that I'm mature and wiser, with a better taste in men

Anyhoos, I would like to thank each and every one of you.. yes, YOU! the one who're reading this right now - for supporting me all throughout the 5 years. Some of you I've been knowing all my blogging life (here's looking at you, nelldeco & padfoot), some I've knew for just a few months but somehow it feels like we know each other longer than that. But whatever it is, each of you have inspired me in your own way - so thank you for that.

It's been a fun ride so far and here's hoping for many many more on this roller coaster we call life. Here's to many more years of blogging


gimme hi-five as my bloggie turns 5!

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if life is too short, why do we waste it with hatred?

I have my own reason why I despised talking about my high school experience. Not that I'd got bullied so bad ohmyGodIwannastartrandomlyshootpeople kinda bad that merely mentioned of high school make me frown, eyes fill with disgust etc, but it was because the people that I'd unfortunate to share school with.

Those who are retarded. People who acted like a nice person but in truth they're just a wolf in sheep clothing. Some deluded airheads who thought they were better than others. People who filled their heart with bad thing, that if the heart has color, it'll be the blackest shade of black. Some stupid girls who thought they did everyone a favor by meddling others' business, acted as middle-person but the thing is - they made things even worse. Girls who used their pretty little mouth to concoct stories, fabricated the truth and spread lies, it was like they got sexual pleasures from doing so.

Actually, it wasn't exactly little. Or pretty in my perspective. Big ugly mouth!


A few months back, I mindlessly blog-hopped and got stumbled upon an old schoolmate of mine. We weren't close and the only fond memory I had on her was her cute nickname. And the other memory I recalled wasn't exactly filled with sunshine and rainbow but yeah, we weren't exactly fit the friends term. The only that tied us together was the fact that I shared the same class with her for 5 years worth of high-schooling.

So anyway, I spent a few days lurking around her blog, just roughly read her blog, entry by entry. It then came to this particular entry that shocked me the most - you know those meme that required you to list down 10 things about yourself? Apparently out of 10 things about her that had been listed, only 1 and a half of her points that I could totally nodded my approval. Turned out that she wasn't that bad... at least, according to her list anyway. In fact, some of them melted my heart and left me wondering - did I barely knew her? Did I give myself no chance whatsoever to really get know her?

But then, I reminded myself that this is internet. Anyone can concoct stories, fabricate the truth at their will. George Bush can be a male version of Mother Theresa if he wanna. But still, I gave her benefits of doubts.

Until recently.

Something happened and I have no intention to recall everything in details, but the main point is : she is who I thought she is. She still the same girl I knew back then and she holds no difference to the girl I used to hate. Still hate, actually. She still the asshole that I love to hate.

She hasn't changed.


Sure, we can change the color of our eyes. We can dye our hair. We can choose what size we wanna fit in, or how big or small we want our boobs to be. But really, can an asshole change? For the better? Or does the old phrase - once an asshole, always an asshole will always ring true in our life?


Since we're on the asshole topic, can anyone point me the direction to The Sun HQ? Cause I feel the need to plant one or two C4 in their HQ. Or maybe a dozen. Stupid, fucking twat fabricate story about how Cesc labeling Arsenal FC as impotent. What. The. Fuck. Bullshits all over. Cesc's quotes have been taking out of context, twisted and fabricated. And some stupid, pathetic people fall for that.

Exhibit A - cesc if u damn want to go out! just do it. i even try to not care from right now! i'm bored cuz those speculations

Exhibit B - if he really said this he can fuck up and go inloyal wanker!!! Such Captain we dont need!!! And if he goes I really hope his legs will be both broken!!!!

Umm hello, this is The Sun we're talking about. Surely we know better than to trust their story and fall for their lies, yes? And bitch, please. This is Cesc we're talking about. Francesc Fàbregas Soler. Cesc is many things - midfield maestro, the sleepyhead, a donuts addict but stupid is not one of them. Which is why, at time like this make me grateful for arseblog. Please read his article over here to get the real story.

By the way, quite random : but I love the smell of fresh new signing(s). Say hi to Thomas Vermaelen, 24 years old defender from Belgium. Gorgeous eyes, great smile and he can speaks English. He looks like a skinny version of Nemanja Vidic, though. I take it as a good sign, yes? I've watched him before during KJ Hunterlaar's brief stint as Ajax skipper, just before bb Hunter joined Real Madrid late last year. Thomas quite good, if I say so. Only time can tell but for the time being, watch the video of Thomas in our blue away kit. He looks good and oooooh, the chuckle. And his sharply defined jaws? That's his secret weapon, trust me.

freena, you can have Cesc.
Ina, you can lock Nick up in your basement.
padfoot, do whatever you wanna do to Robin.

I want this guy.

p/s : pokcik Fergie biler ndak shopping? Kater ada 80mill :P

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when a heart breaks, it doesn't break even

Today is such a gloomy, glooooomyyy day.

Totally suits my mood T_T

This feels like when Arsenal crashed out of CL semi-final, only 76897098 times worse.

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mamma mia - here we go again

They have the best manager and the most stylish kit. So it is truly mind-boggling why Italy NT don't win each and every tournament they compete in.

Here are some reasons I could come up with :

[1] others are ridiculously jealous of their good looks and equally good tans
[2] they often unfortunately throw into a group with difficult teams (aka other countries besides Italy, that is)
[3] it's a conspiracy! The other teams -no matter how much they hate each other and how illogical it is- will always plotting to get rid of Italy
[4] it's the refs' fault! They are not up to the standards set in Serie A as they refuse bribes and intimidation doesn't completely undo them
[5] the standard of great players are not on par with Serie A players. In Italy, you need to be tactically and technically excellent to be a good player (even if you have the speed and mobility of a snail)
[6] others don't truly comprehend the complex sensibilities of Italian football sportsmanship (also known as cheating) and their art of football : defending (and sulking when things don't go their way)
[7] they were against Brazil NT, for fuck's sake! The pioneer of the samba football! (never mind the fact that Selecao struggled against Ecuador, Columbia, Bolivia & Argentina and lost to Paraguay & Venezuela in the past 4 months)
[8] THIS! They forgot to do this before tournament. Gay? What's gay?

Whatever it is, what's done is done. They've crashed out off Confederations Cup, no thanks to Luis Fabiano's brace and owh, Dossena's own goal. Selecao really tore apart Azzurri's defense, it got to a point where I kinda felt sorry for them. But then, I remembered that they were Italy NT and I laughed. Loudly.

I knew I was right before - about Italy NT wouldn't make it out of the group. World Cup champion my ass!


(to Azzurri) later, Losers!

* gifs originally by n720 @ LJ, edited by yours truly

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